THE Necklace.

Saja je nak share gambar necklace yang saya dapat for my engagement tempoh hari. It’s so beautiful I tell you. Tidak dapat diragukan lagi bahawa Encik Tunang sangat pandai memilih barang kemas. Just look at all the jeweleries he had given me – from a shiny white gold ring, to the unique ‘merisik’ ring and lots and lots of silver necklaces, there were all gorgeous. Super gorgeous. Taste beliau memang tip top lah. Tak payah nak berdebar takut beliau beli design yang buruk ke ape, sebab memang tak akan. It’s proven already. Huhuhu.

Apa-apa pun, thanks sayang for this lovely engagement gift. I love it so much. Oh and I love you so much too! Hehe.

P.S. Malas lah nak update pasal Cilacap. Nanti-nantilah bila rajin. Okay kot so far. Tapi one thing je yang nak cakap: Cilacap panas gila. Double panas dari Jogja. So you do the math lah ye. Macam nak rentung dah duduk kat sini. Huhu.

Off To Cilacap For K3M

I am off to Cilacap for 6 weeks for my K3M rotation today. K3M stands for ‘Kuliah Kerja Kesehatan Masyarakat’, so from the name of the rotation itself, it is crystal clear that in this rotation, we will be working in the community, whether through the Puskesmas (Pusat Kesehatan Masyarakat = Government Clinic) or directly door-to-door to the people living in our coverage area.

Okay sangat tak ada mood nak pergi kalau tak compulsory and not in the syllabus mesti dah lama dah escape. Terpaksa mode please.

Anyways,

I have been assigned to Puskesmas Cilacap Selatan 1. People say that the Puskesmas is located not so far from the town. Boleh percaya ke? We shall wait and see. Huhu. To be honest I don’t mind living in the village (for 6 freaking weeks!) as long as it has clean water (and the bathroom must be clean too!), and a walking-distance mini market. Tapi tengok lah macam mana nanti. I’ll update more about the place once I get there and connected to the internet ye. Hopefully ada lah cyber cafe nearby.

Okay people, sampai di sini sahaja. Tak habis packing lagi.

I’ll see you when I see you!

P.S. Beruntung sangat ada Encik Tunang yang sangat supportive and selalu bagi motivation. Thanks sangat-sangat sayang. Kalau awak tak ada di sisi, huru-hara lah saya ni. Mesti dah stress and depress gila. Haha. Love you baby!

The Gorgeous ‘Bunga Dulang’

Cantik kan? Some people panggil bunga hiasan ni ‘Bunga Dulang’ sebab bunga-bunga ni yang akan menghias dulang hantaran supaya lebih cantik, alive dan sesuai color tema. Ada yang just panggil ‘Bunga Hiasan’ je. Hehe.

Tak kesah lah apa yang orang panggil. Yang penting, ini la bunga yang menghiasi gubahan hantaran di majlis pertunangan saya hari tu.

I like it very much. 7 flowers were mailed to me, gigih betul pos kan untuk saya. Why 7? Sebab 5 dulang berbalas 7 lah that’s why.

And they were all sponsored by one of my Gemilangs, Nor. Thank you sangat love! Cantik gila bunga ni semua. Kau yang buat sendiri kah?

Terharukan ada rakan-rakan seperti ini. Tanpa meminta, mereka awal-awal dah volunteer nak tolong itu, ini. I am touched, I really am. And I feel loved.

Thank you so much for everything. Thank you for being a part of my life. Sayang korang sangat-sangat. I am blessed and honored to have the opportunity to be friends with you guys. Betu tak tipu. Hehe.

The Random Thoughts I Am Having

• The weather is so hot right now. Damn you global warming!

• I miss sleeping in my air-conditioned room back home. Ahhh, so cold and comforting.

• Homesick gila, nak balik Malaysia

• Next holiday is in May. May people May! That’s another 6 months from now!

• I know from now on you have to double up the amount of money you save per month for our future ‘W’ day, but honestly, I just want you to be here with me right now, badly. Even though I know that it’s impossible, believe me I never stop dreaming.

• Kenapa orang yang selalu buat kita sedih happens to be orang yang paling kita sayang? Mesti punyalah!

• I may sound like a selfish person, but believe me, all my decisions are made for your own good, in the future. I love you, and I don’t want anything bad happen to my loved ones.

• Tak nak gila pergi Cilacap for 6 weeks doing my K3M next Tuesday. Tapi sooner or later tetap kena pergi so baik pergi je sekarang settlekan semua cepat-cepat. Sungguh tak ada mood.

• Kadang-kadang kita memerlukan sedikit paksaan/push up/desakan dari orang lain untuk berubah. Seringkali manusia berubah bukan dengan kerelaan hati, tetapi kerana desakan dari sekelilingnya. Kerana keadaan. But it’s never too late to change and don’t you ever underestimate yourself. Belum try lagi dah cakap tak boleh. Macam mana tu?

• Did I mention yang saya tengah homesick gila nak balik Malaysia sangat-sangat even though baru je balik haritu?

• Please somebody please come here and accompany me. I need to be amused. I need not to feel like I am all alone.

• Bencilah orang yang suka cakap tanpa betul-betul baca fakta-fakta yang sebenar. Dahlah negara lain yang buat, and diorang pun dah mengaku, apologized and cleared things up. So patut dah settle. Tak habis-habis nak kutuk negara orang. By doing that, what make you a better person than us? Apatah lagi bila kau tu seorang specialist yang diagung-agungkan. Terus musnah respect aku kepada kau.

• Lesson of the day: If you want to talk shit about my country, please do so NOT in front of my face. Mind that a person’s patience has its own limit. And mine is nearly reached. Jangan one day aku dah fed up aku tengking kau dan tampar muka kau sudah. You have been warned.

Engagement Photos: Extended Version

Yes, you might have seen some of the pictures in my facebook. But the others are never been released before. So enjoy!

Dari pihak lelaki. The front row carrying 5 dulang hantaran. Diorang datang 10 kereta tau. Memang rombongan Cik Kiah betul! Huhu.

Yang kat tengah tu is Am’s uncle. Beliau yang menjadi wakil dari pihak lelaki.

5 dulang berbalas 7 disatukan bersama.

Super gorgeous engagement cake from my Gemilangs.

Acara dimulakan dengan penuh adat istiadat Melayu diiringi dengan perbalasan pantun dari kedua belah pihak.

Di bawah majlis tengah berlangsung, kita yang di atas bosan menunggu  so apa kata kita posing dulu! Hehe.

Penat berangan sesorang, bergambar lah pulak dengan rakan-rakan yang setia menemani. Hehe.

Yang di atas tadi version skema. Yang ni version free style pulak lah ye. Dah dapat green light buat gaya bebas, haruslah buat ‘peace’ dengan penuh gembira! Muakakaka.

Ok then tiba-tiba kena panggil suruh turun bawah. The initial plan diorang yang akan naik atas untuk acara memakaikan rantai etc, tapi tiba-tiba orang bawah suruh turun pulak. Terus jadi berdebar huru-hara time ni. Haha.

Mak Am tengah pakaikan rantai di leher. Susah jugak nak pakaikan sebab ada veil melekat kat tudung. Huhu.

Dah habis tu, tak kan tak nak salam bakal mother-in-law kot kannnn. Ahaks.

My beloved Gemilangs and Ninie yang sanggup datang dari Kelantan semata-mata untuk datang my engagement sedang bersidai di tangga. Bersidai kau! Yela, kata dayang-dayang kannn. Haha.

Okay then Encik Tunang pulak dipanggil masuk. Pak Ulung saya cakap, biar tak tersalah orang so kena lah tengok muka dia. Huhu.

Ecececece mula-mula duduk baik jerk sorang-sorang kat tengah-tengah alam tu. Huhu.

Tengah buat ape tu Encik Tunang oiii? Apa ni time majlis pergi main kunci kereta. Bosan ke? Haha.

Okay ini ayah Am. Kepada sesiapa yang belum kenal lah ye. Hehe.

After selesai, majlis dilanjutkan dengan acara tahlil untuk arwah nenek dan atuk saya. Lepas tu makan lah apa lagi! After makan, sempat mengambil peluang berposing-posing bersama Tunang tersayang. Amboiiiiiii~

Eh eh! Apasal tiba-tiba kita telah disesarkan dan jadi photo session awak seorang ni? Bukan photographer ni mak kita yang bayar ke? Huhu.

Tengok! Siap ada gambar close up berukuran pasport lagikkkkk! Over tau!

Time dah nak balik, sempat jugak lah bergambar outside my house.

Tingginya ayah Am compared to the others! Nasib anak dia tak dapat gene tinggi tu kan? Kalau tak, sakit la leher saya nak mendongak pandang awak. Huhuhu.

From left, atuk Am, my mother, yours truly dengan Am’s mother

Family photo! Khas untuk my little sister Ina yang jauh di France.

My beloved parents

Okay lah. Ada banyak gila lagi gambar. But I think it’s enough la kan. Cukup-cukup la tu. Huhu. So, sebelum bersurai, saya tinggalkan anda dengan gambar pose maut saya ala-ala gadis penghias muka depan majalah pengantin. Bukan selalu tau dapat tengok Akma Nurain dengan pose macam ni. Hehe. Semoga terhibur!

Post-Engagement: Day 1

Okay so now I am officially engaged. Macam tak percaya pun ada jugak. Am has started to call me “Tunang-ku”. Sweet isn’t it? Hehe. Bersyukur majlis berjalan lancar yesterday.

Bangga orang puji baju tunang cantik. Tempah khas from Jogja tu. Tak sia-sia bayar mahal cause it’s all worth it. Not so satisfied with the make up though. Walaupun dalam DSLR photographer nampak cantik, but I don’t look like myself. Muka totally transformed jadi someone else. So next time, I’ll make sure yang akan ada trial make up before the majlis. Orang-orang cakap kita bermake-up supaya nampak lain dari our usual look but I don’t quite agree with that. I believe that bermake up hanya lah untuk cover up all the flaws on our face; freckles, dark circles, eye bag – you name it, but at the same time memelihara rupa kita yang asli. Itu baru make up yang bagus, betul tak?

Apa-apa pun, yesterday is history already. One of the most historical and memorable day in my life. Kepada sesiapa yang datang, thanks for coming. Kepada my Gemilangs and Ninie, thank you so much for the cake and all. Cantik sangat lah cake tu. Hehe. I love you guys so much. You guys are the best lah!

And last but not least, thanks to both my parents, my sister and her family, and also my brother and his wife for all the help in making the ceremony a success. Walaupun my mother akan menjadi hysterical gila bila under stress dan akan emo marah semua orang, but I love you Mak! Tanpa Mak sure there will be no kenduri, no majlis, no semua lah. Semua tak akan jadi kalau Mak tak de. You are my everything.

Okay lah. Nanti siang nak pergi dating dengan kekasih tunang tersayang. Huhu. Still rasa weird lah, guna perkataan tunang. Tak pe, I am sure in a few days I’ll get use to it. Hehehe.

Oh pictures will be posted later okay bila dah dapat dari photographer.

Tomorrow.

Just arrived at my home sweet home. Everyone is busy preparing for tomorrow’s ceremony. Couldn’t believe that THE day is actually coming. Haha.

Exam yesterday was horrible. My skills were okay I guess, but the theory part was a disaster. I don’t know what I was thinking at that moment, I remember being so scared and as usual when the panic attacks, I couldn’t think straight. I couldn’t even read the question properly. Eveything seemed unclear to me.  Sedih but what to do kan. I am just a little bit disappointed lah cause I know I can do better, tapi tak pelah redha jerk.

Okay lah. Tak payah fikir benda yang dah berlalu. Fikir pasal hari esok lagi baik. Hope everything goes well tomorrow. Doakan kami ye!

Friday Is Exam Day!

Exam is on Friday. And I don’t know a thing!

Adoi. Pray for me.

(Dah lah tak settle 2 refleksi kasus lagi ni. Benci lah kenapa kena acc resident dulu tak boleh straight maju dengan staff jerk. Menyusahkan orang je tau. Fikir senang ke nak cari resident R6 ke atas? Hmm)

Announcing The Upcoming ‘E’ Ceremony

Nahhh. I’ve said it out loud.

All are welcome to come. Hehe.

Sorry if I didn’t invite/tell you personally. I am too busy settling everything down and preparing myself for the exam and such. Time is really a factor for me right now. Hope you’ll understand and forgive me for my flaws. I love you, I really do. We are after all related in every ways. So please, don’t be mad. I really didn’t mean it.

Thought Of The Day

Lagi sekali nak cakap, serious malas nak blogging.

I am just updating for the sake of updating. Huhu. Terlalu bosan bukak blog sendiri tak ada latest entry. So here it is, I present you the so called latest update of the life I am living right now. Nothing interesting to be shared, nothing new to be showed off, it’s just the same old me, with the usual routine as a 5th year medical student.

At one point of my life, I just feel like I had enough. 5 years abroad had taught me that there’s no other place on earth that is better than our own home. How eh the perumpamaan? Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri, was it? So true la weh! Wherever we are, whether in another developing 3rd world country or even a developed one, still our own country is the best. Still feel homesick, nak balik rumah, rindu mak ayah, kekasih hati, rakan taulan, betul tak?

Yeah yeah despite all the current communication technology that makes not keeping in touch almost impossible and being far apart doesn’t seem too far like it used to be, but still, it couldn’t compensate the feeling of touching the hands of our parents, kissing their forehead, or even breathing the air of our own room. Believe me nothing could ever replace that, not even a video call, or chatting sessions with video cam. Nothing.

If only the ‘pintu suka hati doremon’ is for real.

Okay sekarang sudah homesick. Great.

I am tired already with this kind of life. I am tired of being away with my loved ones. Dah bosan sangat dah kat sini. Nak balik, serious nak balik.

But I know that it’s not that easy. Life is never easy. Nanti senang sangat tak best pulak kan. Huhu. So I am going to finish it, once and for all, with every strength that I have left.

Each day that passes me by means nothing other than to bring me closer to be home. For good. And it’s the only reason for me to wake up every morning and continue to live right now.

Semangat semangat!