2 Weeks In Banyumas: Done!

Finally will be coming back to Jogja tomorrow.

Then jagum on the next day. Aish.

Never-ending tiredness I guess.

Even a robot has to charge its battery.

Our energy are believed to be beyond robots then.

Hang on Akma Nurain, hang on! Hang on as long as you can.

Yes, I am holding on. With every strength that I have left. With everyday self-reminder that this is not a mistake. This is what I have chosen for life. And why I chose it? Because I simply love it.

Repetition. Sometimes, it’s all that you need to remind you what’s easily forgotten – the very first reason of choosing this tiring, tough, but undoubtedly noble path.

After Quit A While..

Sorry for the long silence. Bukannya saya mogok merajuk ke apa tak mau update blog, it’s just that I am too far away from a good internet connection hence the lack of update. Plus the hectic life that I am living right now makes sleeping more tempting than blogging. Forgive me please, okay folks?!

I more week in Banyumas. Then back in Jogja for Jagum. Adoiiii. Bila lah dapat rest ni. Homesick gila lah. Tapi memang tak ada cuti nak balik Malaysia. Maybe sometime in July. Adoi that’s around 6 months from now. 6 months weh! Just pray I’ll be strong enough for this. After all, work in Malaysia will be much more crazy than this. So we can say that every single thing that I am going through right now will prepare me for the future. Positive thinking weh, positive thinking!

Jumpa macam-macam jenis orang yang teruk kat dunia ni so far. I used to think that bitchiness is overrated, but I was wrong. Those kind of people really exist! Tapi nantilah cerita pasal tu. Huhu.

UGM sweetheart couple, Azra and Arep got married yesterday. Bestnye dah kahwin. Please please buat reception in Jogja for us to attend. Hehe. Best wishes for both of you. Semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat. Huwaaaaaa nak kahwin juga. Aish, focus habiskan study dulu please. Hohoho.

Okaylah since saya dah mula merepek, I think I am going to stop now. Nanti-nanti kita cerita lagi okay. Bye bye for now, have a great Sunday!

T_T

I just want to be loved. With all your heart. With sincerity.

Is it too much to ask?

Sedihlah.

Last Day At Poly

The much-awaited weekend has arrived!

Kerja separuh hari di Internal Medicine polyclinic then I am off to freedom. At least for the rest of the day yeay!

Off to Banyumas for 2 weeks tomorrow at 3. Belum packing lagi and need to settle a lot of things in Jogja before leaving.

(Pick up dry clean, Keluarkan duit yang dah negative di ATM machine, Packing!, Go to supermarket to buy some personal-traveling stuffs, Bayar this month’s internet fee, Topup! – Adoi banyak nya kena buat!!)

I am craving for Begawan Solo’s cookies and cream lately. Had one last Monday and been planning to get another one before I am off to Banyumas. Tengoklah nanti macam mana. Nak makan yogurt at Galeria lagi. Adoiiii kenapalah banyak sangat desert/drink sedap kat sini. Hehe.

Okaylah, actually nak tulis lagi but I just realize that it’s 5.45 a.m and saya tak mandi and iron baju lagi! Dah lah masuk kerja before 7! So bye bye for now. Nanti berjumpa lagi. Hehe.

Stress. Life. Love.

A very stressful and restless life that I am living right now. Really wish you could just come here, be my crying shoulder, and telling me that everything is going to be okay.

If only money is not such a problem.. then a 2-and-a-half hour journey does not seem to be so impossible.

I understand every detail of our obstacles my love, but sometimes, especially when it comes to all of the stresses in life, there’s nothing else I could think of rather than wanting you to be here, and put all the miseries away.

Yes, I know I am that selfish. And I also know that even though it’s almost not possible to happen, sometimes, that crazy-impossible-non-logical hope/dream is all I need to keep me sane in this stressful kind of life.

And then there’s also this tiny probability that a miracle will happen and the impossible becomes possible.

So I am not giving up on any of my dreams, not just yet.

God Please Give Me Strength

Super tired.

Super stress.

Super plenty workloads.

Super broke.

I guess life gets tougher each day.

But I am not sure I can give my very best and function well  in situation like this.

Pray for me. Please.

P.S. Who said Internal Medicine santai? Tipu!

Happy 22nd!

Happy Birthday to my little sister Ina. Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki. Cepat-cepat la balik from France. I nak kahwin! Hahahahaha.

Ina (Left).

I love you sis!

Tunggu Sekejap

5 days of not updating. Quite a record huh?

One more day left. Sabar, sabar.

Promise to write more when I am back.

Nothing out of the ordinary happened for the past 5 days. But worry not, I will find something to write, somehow.

Until then, take care!

It’s Our Monthly Anni. Again! :P

Happy 6-year-10-month Anniversary sayang!

I love you more each day.. my fiance

2 more months till our 7th anniversary.

S. E. V. E. N. T. H.

Who could have thought right?

P.S. Doakan jodoh kami kekal ke akhir hayat ye rakan-rakan!

Cerita Dr. A

Cerita ni berlaku pada hari Khamis 07/01/2010 yang lalu. Time tu saya dan kawan saya tengah rushing on the way nak pergi ward check patient. From far, we saw a fine man walking towards us. And I definitely knew who he was.  Specialist handsome kan, siapa tak ingat. Huhu. Saya pun cakap la kat kawan saya tu, “Ni la Dr. A, specialist ENT”.

Makin lama, doktor tu makin menghampiri kitorang. At that time, never occurred in my mind any intention to tegur him whatsoever. Yela, ENT was my first rotation and it happened almost a year ago so I had no doubt he wouldn’t remember me, not at all -  just like every other specialist. After all, a practical/trainee doctor like us kasta sangat lah low paling terbawah sekali so we couldn’t expect much lah kan for other hospital staffs to recognize us.

So I thought a smile was all I need. A smile would be enough as a token of appreciation and at the same time letting him know that I used to be his student.

However, out of my wildest expectations, tanpa disangka-sangka sekali, baru je saya nak tarik muke senyum, Dr. A terlebih dahulu menegur saya.

Dr. A: Dik! Kamu lagi di mana sekarang? Obsgyn ya? (Adik, kamu kat department apa sekarang?)

Saya: Oh ngak Doc. Lagi di Interna. (Oh, tak Doc. Saya kat Internal Medicine sekarang)

Saya: Kok masih inget ya Doc? (Eh, Doc still ingat kat saya lagi ek?)

Dr. A: Inget dongggggg! (Mestilah ingat!!!)

Dang!

He remembers me! Doktor specialist handsome ingat saya! Kagum weh kagum gila. Flattered ada juga. Terharu pun sama! It had been so long, tapi beliau masih ingat kat saya. Fuh. Gila lah!

Yang paling penting sekali sebab beliau handsome. Hehe. So tu membuat hati lebih berbunga-bunga. Fuh!