It’s Been A Year.

I am hurt. Yes, you heard me. Of your ignorance. It’s like you didn’t even care to show some respect and care for my feeling. Because of the fact that I am not leaving no matter what happen, has turned to be the reason for you to be less care and ignorant.

You felt so secure of everything you forgot about me and my happiness. You became so arrogant to even care about those little details that in fact are the reasons that keep us together all this time.

Just so you know, I am telling you for the hundred of times, what matter the most is those little details – things that according to you are not important and can be ignored.

Sometimes, things are better said out loud rather than assuming that telling it once is already enough. Expressing your love to your loved ones is never enough and it’s not a crime to repeat it over and over again.

Because of this, I will continue to be silent and isolate myself. From you.

Up until I gain back your attention and all the respects I need.

Happy 1-year ‘E’ Anniversary. And exactly 2 more months left until the walk down the aisle.

Pada Detik Waktu Ini.

Suddenly all the scared thoughts and anxieties are all gone. And for the first time in my life, I have no doubt and very sure about everything.

I am so in love with you. More than ever.

Really really can’t wait for our big day.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusan.

24.09

To the man I love, on his special day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Despite all the conflicts that we are having, I am still very much in love with you.

But truly, the only thing I need is a man that can protect and defend me, sometimes even from his own family. To have his own stand for something and stick with it no matter what. To be brave enough to decide and make his own choices in life, without being scared to project his opinion on something. To be independent enough to take control of everything involving his life without being controlled by his parents or other people.

As disappointed as it could ever be, I just need to accept the fact that you are not that kind of guy.

But just remember one thing. This is, after all my wedding. So I have all the rights in the world to be part of it, no matter how hard you want to push me away. It’s my big day. You and I. Ours. I want to have my own dream wedding, not realizing other people’s dream wedding. The kind of wedding that they couldn’t have. Or never had when they were young. Well guess what? Their time is over. It’s our time now. How am I going to be happy on my own freaking wedding if I don’t even get the chance to be part of it?

The Romantic Side Of Him.

Okay terpaksa jugak tulis kat sini. Sorry sayang. Sebab dah hebat sangat so kena tulis as future’s self-reference. Hehe.

Okay here it goes..

Just after 2 minutes from our ritual morning phone call, he sent me a message:

Isk tetibe lak rindu yang terlampau kat baby yang tersayang ni la. Huhu. Terbayang-bayang muka comel Ain semalam. Alahai. Saya dah jatuh cinta sekali lagi lah. Mmuaahh! Happy Birthday yang ke-25!

Hahaha. Amacam cair tak? Read it and weep suckers! Muakakakaka.

P.S. Even after all these years, you never fail to surprise me.. 🙂

Happy 25th..

…Birthday to Me.

I have got the special birthday wish ever from the Fiance. Thank you sayang. You really really made my day.

Oh and a cute black Nine West handbag from him too 😀

P.S And for the rest of the people who wished me or about to wish me, thank you so much. You guys touched me. And I feel loved. (I’ll comment on that later in another post okay)

Words That Could Change The World.

“…Am sayang sangat Ain dunia akhirat”.

Your words meant a lot to me. Thank you.

And yes, the feeling is mutual.

Sedangkan Lidah Lagi Tergigit..

We have been together for 7 years and 4 months.

And although at the moment I am hurt by your insensitivity, I still am very much in love with you.

So Happy Anniversary, my dear fiance.

Tanggal 1 Setiap Bulan.

HAPPY ‘E’ ANNIVERSARY to us!

Today is the 1st of June. So it’s been 7 months now.. since the day we got engaged. It really feels like yesterday. Tak terasa pun kan.

Bercintan-cintun lagi lah tak hengat dunia, dah 7 years, 2 months, 3 weeks and a day kauuuuuu. Lama tu. Huhu.

And only 7 months to go before THE walk down the aisle.

Hehehe. I guess that’s the lesson for today. Mengira-ngira dan membuat countdown. Hahahaha.

Trust me, the sparkles are still there. The tingles are very much alive. And the love is still on fire. Even after all these years! 😀

I love you my dear fiance! Happy ‘E’ Anniversary!

I Miss You Already.

Yes, it’s true.

Really really glad you came sayang. You really made my day. Semua stress pun gone just like that when you’re around. Hebat betul penangan cinta ini ye. Hehehe. It’s like dunia ini kita yang punya and nothing else matters.

You’re wonderful sayang. Tak sabar sangat nak balik Malaysia for good and we can finally be together, forever and ever. Huhuhu.

Goodbye for now my love. Sampai bertemu lagi~

It’s Just Like A Dream..

I will be seeing you sayang, in less than a week!

There’s so much things to do, places to go. Finally I can show you my life in here. Can’t wait!

(Dah start excited gila dah ni! Huhuhu)